Chapter 47

“I know she’s already asleep but with everything she’s been through this morning I think a little bit of Valium would help her both mentally and physically.”

She holds her hand out with a small syringe in her palm.

“It’s up to you.”

“I don’t want to drug her down too much right now and I don’t like the idea of giving her a shot while she’s sleeping. What did you find ?:

“She does have a decent tear, so I’m d I went the route I did as it was far less painful and quicker. It’s about two inches long but it was responding nicely to the after tie medication before I cleaned everything up. I’lle up to your room around nine tonight with the second dose and walk you through giving it to her. If you have Valium in pill form I would rmend her to take that around 8:30 as the second dose still tends to be a bit painful.”

“Thank you, Ang.”

She gives me a smile as I pull her into a hug.

“I’m going to head over to the medical wing. I’ve got a physical toplete at 11:30 before I can check on Cole. ”

“I’ll be headed over to Cole once I leave here. Then I’m going to have lunch with all of the trainers . ”

She gives me a final nod before leaving the room.

I make my way back to Lilly,ying on the bed with her. I pull her closer to me. She whimpers at first until I touch her face and speak to her.

“Lilly, I wish I could stay with you. All I want is to hold you tight and never let go.”

She opens her eyes and looks into mine. Her normally stunning blue eyes are dull, filled with sadness and worry .

“The only thing today changes is how I help you deal with your past. I certainly won’t ever wear a condom with you again.”

I stifle a smallugh but at least earn a smile from her.

“Was that what you changed? Is that why you suddenly felt like him?”

“Yes Lilly. All I did was put on a condom and pull you back so your thighs were leaning against mine. I felt you change as soon as I pulled you back. That’s why I stopped. I knew it triggered the memories. I’m sorry Lilly. I should have never done that to you.”

“Don’t be. I needed to finally know.”

“Why did you wait so long to tell me?”

“I was convinced of a lot of things when he was training me. A lot of them I still struggle not to believe. He would always tell me that the luna of a pack had to be pure but that no alpha wants a luna that doesn’t know how to please him. That telling anyone what he did to me would make me a whore in your eyes and worthy of rejection.”

I take a deep breath trying to process everything.

“How did seeing Cole’s injuries to his chest trigger your memories? What made you change your mind about talking aout it ? ”

“There was a period of time when he spanked me while I was still tied to the bed. It created cuts and bruises all over my chest and belly . Much like what I saw on him today. The tenderness I saw with how youforted him and reassured him , a bplete stranger that you just met reminded me of how you treated me early in our rtionship. How you fought with your father over bpleting the mate’s union ceremony

because you knew I wasn’t ready for sex. How patiently you waited for me to be ready and how you have let go of your own sexual desires to keep mefortable. I should have told you sooner. Maybe I could have learned to like sex after all that’s happened to me

She yelps as I suddenly straddle her , sliding my hands under her and lowering my body down against her.

“You enjoy it more than you allow yourself to know and I have every intention of slowly , gently teaching you how. You deserve to feel it as it should be without the fear and anxiety you’vee to know. I love you and I won’t give up on making you happy.”

I capture her lips gently in mine. I can tell how tired she is by how hard it is for her to keep catch our breath. I gently rub the back of her head when she tries to resume the kiss again.

“It’s okay to sleep, Lilly. I’ll be backter. Are you in any pain?” up.

I lean my head upon her forehead as we both

She shakes her head as her eyes start to droop again. I slide off her so that I’m face to face with her again, gently stroking her temple as she falls asleep.